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Thursday, January 06, 2011

I don't want to hide any feelings le
Idw because of my stubborness make me lose anything else

recent feelings:
the moment I sms-ed you are you free tml
I don't really expect a reply even thou
i put general and near my ear incase i fell asleep.
because after I sent out, it wasnt my decision anymore
but i was more cheerful because it was still a ray of hope

I squirm at the thoughts of how tough life might be
It takes alot effort to change
im not scared that things are tough
im just scared the reason i'm tough for
might disappear on it's own someday

i know that 3 terms, is not for yourself

is for me, for me to change better

it was also kind of change what impression
i'm giving to people around me

but, i just want to change for you, not for other reason

its not i cannot change, is im scared
if just because of 1 mistake and
you dont give me yet another chance
i dont mean the recent, i mean if there is another in the future
like if i changed slightly, but yet i made a mistake somewhere..
humans always needed chances, im not perfect
yet practise takes time

like, if i fall on my 1st time learning bike
and i keep falling because of different reasons
and yet after falling once or twice
my body don't want let my brain to
have that sastifactory feeling of learning to ride a bike
i know how dejected my brain would be

but if my body always give my brain a chance to learn
even with all the bruises it will soon have that feeling of
the wind blowing onto the skin having a shiok feeling

if you used my facebook
you realise i have a few notes that are private to myself
my kor did wanted me to change better
i know that, i scared when i system restore my comp
i lose all those valuable words

but i just had insecurity.. because of my past
it wasnt really your fault, it was mine all along
i was just scared, i know i can trust you
but, my brain just back track into those horoscopes
besides, it was the 1st time you really requested..
it really felt weird, or truthfully, scary

i always knew i dunno how to show you i love you
but i just found a way to show my loved ones how i love them,
by just doing the best in what i should do.
i know that will really bring a peace to my mum's mind

i now only worry if i changed
into a person that aint like me anymore
would you still love me?
i know it's pointless to ask at this time since nothing has moved on
but, with time passes, changes comes too.
btw, im a person with 三分钟热度
so i just hope sometimes you can just cut me some slack

Sleep Tight, Goodnight~
Written by xImSelene 7:14:00 AM