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Thursday, September 02, 2010

stupid me
4plus ask martin come down pei me
7 went back change clothes
when ask allowance sis dunwan give
ok lor since lidat
OFA exam, appeal for debar all gone
den lidat, i no more exams liao, fan zheng bze and ofa need appeal
cmb finished ofa missed bze and ofa cannot appeal
your decision not mine.
2dollars left in ezlink
what you expect? me to walk to sku.

i learnt abit during this 1mth
i mean, yeah alot
i never really understand or know about a person before i stead
i never know how to answer questions ppl ask me abt my 'bf'
but it oso let me think.. to maintain a rs constant surprises are needed
and.. for me, i can never do that, so it rules down to
totally im not suitable for relationship, its like
nah you will break soon cuz u dun understand him enuff.

i need a person who will trust me no matter what happens
who will try to cheer me up when im upset/stress
a person who can tell me jiayou when i want to give up
and -.- this person so difficult to find.

im not you i cant do everything you can do.
im weak, i had such a good life that idk how to be strong
my faith is easily wavered
i might pretend i'm looking at a half full cup
but i only know how to look at half empty cup

if you see me smiling, nah thats not me
but lucky you if you see me smile
i might keep smiling when i meet people
but.. sadly to say that's my mask
i will try to forget everything when i with friends
so that i can be their pistachio
but sometimes those -ve emotions rule over the +ve emotions
i wonder who could see me smile when im alone.

i dun go sku sometimes is because
i dun have enuff responsibility to motivate me to go
i dun go work is because everyone down there dislikes me,
and i know that from their expressions
i dun noe how to treat my family good is because
for trying to smile at a black face for years and failing everytime
you give up trying because you know that the outcome is the same.

a quote that i loved
love your job and you'll never have to work a day.
i like having a laid back life, i like to have fun
but i hadnt learnt how to love my job.

Sleep Tight, Goodnight~
Written by xImSelene 11:05:00 PM