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Thursday, September 02, 2010

give up,
yes that is what i thought
im not suitable for anything
a r/s need to be maintained so it can last forever
and i cant do that

mum lidat, how many years could she provide for me?
laziness my biggest weakness,
what could make me not lazy to change this laziness?

regret
what made me do so many things that i will regret?
regret giving up somethings
regret taking up somethings
regret everything
wrong choices? or right choices?

maybe i should stop leaving everything to fate and start work hard
but.. laziness is still here, my mood to have fun is still...
my hands predict a hard life for me.
my life is full of ups and downs.
is that what am i going to go through?

1mth alr, im tired, im giving up
you shouldnt have considered
i shouldnt have tried
im tired, i just wan care concern, someone that understands me

when people fall, they have me to fall back on
when i fall, i have nothing to fall back on.
who? cck? kor? baojian? those claim they love me der?
never, they are never there when i need them
there is no one i can run to that will confort me when im down
they never sense something wrong is going on in my tones

for the past 2 weeks, i found out what some people are thinking
and i have concluded to rule out some people in my friend list
life is not something nice.
somehow i oso want to give up my life

living is so torturous, i cant deal with stress ok?
i cannot deal with stress especially when i know i haven nothing to fall back on
what i will hurt is my pride my self esteem my everything.

you have a goal, you can move on finding that goal
all my goals are so blurry that i can say I DONT HAVE A GOAL
i want to reach the submit, and i dun have safety proceedures
once i take a wrong step, i will be wounded.
and i hate to be wounded.

I Give Up Okay?
I Dont Mind If Death Comes Knocking NOW.
All Those Reasons I Lived For When I Wanted A Suicide, Are Gone.
There's Nothing Worth Living For Anymore.

Sleep Tight, Goodnight~
Written by xImSelene 2:39:00 AM