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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

无论我如何伪装自己
no matter how hard i try to fake
我心底最深的那角落
the deepest corner in my heart
我还是一个要人疼爱保护宠爱的小女生
im still a little girl who wants
to be pampered and loved

i knw i not lady-like i know i tomboy
from past i tomboy is cuz to protect ownself bah
den now is cuz used to it
but den i like got split personality
in shorts act 1 type in skirt act another type
in shorts i can act wilder
but den in skirt i cnt so in skirt i will more gentle de

but den remember what i told you
after u came my hse eat...
i know my mum talk with wisedom
that y i den will gloomy and talk to you
about what she said
even talking to you and you giving me assureance
i knew i had to change from that moment
cuz i know i cant afford to lose you
i love you too much
i cant lose you
you are the needle on my compass
my sense of direction

i knew my choice when u asked me
but i dun want to tell u which was it
cuz i scared i cnt do it
i dun wan break my promise to you
i dun wan to hurt you with broken promises

i didnt send u up not cuz dun wan
i wan.. but den i need some space to cry
so that i wun show u that face
i knew i be moody/upset/emo or whatever
i dun wan let u know that
i dun wan let u worry for me

after i got did sex for the 2nd time
there was no relation that
i wanted to be SERIOUS in
cuz i only got 1 phrase that time
this is not a era to have a bf
cuz all are h0rny bastards
until i met u
the 1st thing i said to myself
if a r/s was to bloom
i want it to last forever
i dun wan it to end
a never ending love story
im wondering will u be able to hold
10 yrs down the road and still going strong

talking about devotion
i alr devoted
i dun even talk to guys anymore
oni guys i talk are xdd or attached
or cfm no chance will like me de
by putting that pic in msn/fb/fs/tagged/blog profile
i alr made my stand that i will be true to you forever
and will love you forever will all my heart
my devotion will last forever
and will brave thru any storm
if u be fighting the storm with me
im alr planning what to do
with any obstacles that i forsee

anything i do is always related to you
is not do for eu is do for this relationship

i didnt wanted to be in contact with u
after saying bb at the mrt stairs
but den u my dearest i heart soft cmi
seriously i more depressed
when i saw that lol in ur smses
cuz i feel like u dunno i am gloomy
and u there happy happy
i knw u dun like me gloomy but i cnt help it at times

when u asked what was my blog add
my heart practically stopped
i still can practically remember
anything related to you by heart
kinda abit disappointed when u asked
cuz is like u dun even bother to remember
or to try to think

i know i will revert back to my old self if i lose you
that time when i lose my 1st ex dennon
i roam around MMORPGs
finding a guy like him or better
just finding smth to cork that hole
he left in my heart
i only got 1 sentence to say
if this relationship was to end
and i have feelings for you
i confirm will give up hope on myself
i have alr have sunken too deep to withdraw

if ur heart will ache when they say..
den i duno le, i duno want to continue anot
i dun wan u to be in the middle
trying to be 和事佬
i dun wan u to be upset or sian or unhappy or smth that is negative

shagua
promise me
that you will tell me ur deepest feelings
w/o caring how i will react to them
i only want to know you and understand you more
if u mind how i will react
tell me over sms or dun look at me when u say can

like that super mushy stupid thing that i said when i isomania
i will love you always
u r my estacy
ur words are my caffeine
im so addicted
that i dun know how much i love you
and i dun know how to stop loving you

just give me time and constant reminders
and i will change gradually
i just want to be that shagua's bendan
not the xmm sunny need to take care of

i dun want tell u my choice right on the spot
cuz i like to use model answer if there is
and for that situation there was a model answer
i dun wan u feel as though im just entertainning you

that teddy bear represents my heart
since i alr given my heart to you
means that i will do anything just for you

i dun like anything changing for the worse
i oni want things to be better

im scared i had put too much feelings in this relationship
and im scared of any bad events happenning

Sleep Tight, Goodnight~
Written by xImSelene 12:34:00 AM